i wanna get myself out of this bed

There are many days of the week. Today is Wednesday, one of my favorites. Actually, Wednesday IS my favorite day of the working week, and has been since I was in 6th grade. Wednesday is when all the good tv shows come. In 6th grade, that was Dawson's Creek, which I continued to watch until I was a sophomore in high school. I'm sure those Wednesdays when I was a senior in high school, it was the O.C. (don't ask me what show I watched junior year on Wednesdays, cause I couldn't tell you). In college, it was Lost. Hell, it's still Lost. However, there is the addition of Top Chef and Glee and occasionally, trashy MTV reality shows. Also in college, Wednesdays was Senior Meeting, and that was always fun.

So what does me explaining all of this have to do with anything? Why, it has to do with one thing and one thing only: motivation. Wednesdays, for me, are not only the best day of the work week but they are also the motivating day of the work week. Because if you get this and this done, you are halfway through the week and also, look what Wednesday evening has in store for you! TV, TV, more TV and drinking/having fun with friends.

And I was motivated, believe me, I was. But at some point yesterday, all of my plans fell flat and I've been sitting in the library for the last hour doing nothing when I have a test in 2 and a half hours. Now, it's not like I've not been studying for this test, because, I have been. But as my sister and my father both separately brought up to me: there is no reason to not get one hundred percent. And they are both right. We received a study guide. Said study guide is basically the test with the multiple choice answers taken out (I know, it's grad school, I was shocked too). I filled most of it out from memory. I made flash cards. I was in it to win it until yesterday and this morning, when I decided I was bored with studying. What. Who have I become. I also came to the library to do some work for other classes. I can see this not happening, as I didn't bring one of my books and I don't care to read the articles online. Fine. Also, I'm procrastinating right now by writing this blog entry. How lucky! I probably am going to stop writing now and dick around some more on the internet and freak out about living while not actually living! yay!!!

All I can hear I-me-mine I-me-mine I-me-mine

So. My laptop is broken. Well, it is not working correctly. I think if I take it to be fixed, then it should be ok. It is the hardware that is messed up, not the software, just so I don't have to hear any of the "OMG get a mac" comments. Keep those to yourself, thank you very much. Anywho, it couldn't have come at a more imperfect time for me: my first paper is due next Monday. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue. I would do the paper at my leisure on Sunday afternoon/night, getting up to proofread it and then I'd turn it in. However, since my laptop is broken and my roommate is out of town, I have to come to the library to do this. Also, I now will have to pay to print, which sucks, because I just bought a printer, paper, etc so that I could print from the leisure of my home (not that I need to print this paper, I believe it is to be turned in online). Another issue is this weekend. I will be in Chicago on Friday but not Saturday or Sunday. This is the dilemma of all dilemmas, as I now have to write my paper somewhere during this week. I guess it is my choice to not be in Chicago for the whole weekend, but I think that I don't need to be here other than Friday (Whoo-hoo, Lola's 21!)
Oh but also, on top of this, I have a test on Wednesday. I don't think it will be very difficult, but I do think that I am stressing about a lot of things (the laptop, really) on top of this. Speaking of, I think I will study for my test at McDonald's. I am having that for lunch because I feel like it.

Everyone's watching to see what you will do Everyone's looking at you

Today is Tuesday. I am excited. As soon as today is finished, it will be Wednesday. And so on and so forth. Really, what I'm writing about is the weekend.

I really only see my boyfriend during the weekend, since he lives kind of far away from the city. He occasionally comes in for important things, such as baseball games, my birthday, harry potter, etc. I'm not complaining; I know I would love to see him everyday all day 24/7, but that's not possible. But, this is how life is. And I'm ok with it for right now, there's not much I can do about it.

But this is not what I wanted to write about. It's that I wanted to write about the weekend. The weekend is such an interesting time. I think in college, or any school age, you really take it for granted. Sure, it's a break from your week, but it's not like you stayed in every night in college. NO. Some days you only had three classes, some days less than that. Looking back, the weekend was just a time to do nothing and to take a break from your week. Not to say it isn't the same, weekends are to take breaks. But the point of the weekend evolves as you get older. At this age, it's to not be at work for 8 hours a day and to have free time during the day to yourself. In college, when it was nice out, you sat outside between classes. When you work, if it's nice out, you look at the weather from your window. Maybe you can step out for lunch, but that's only an hour max. It's different. When it's not nice during the weekend, you get upset, because it was nice during the week and you couldn't enjoy it. As we get older, the weekends are going to turn into getting to spend quality time with the children, your husband/wife, cleaning your house. I just think it's very interesting that it is so different from what age group you are in.

That said, I wish it was Friday soooooo bad.

Just a midnight train going anyyyyyyyyyyyywhere

It's fall, so that means tv. And while I will be in class my main tv days, I am EXCITED because I have dvr and cable and everything is going to happen to me and I won't have to make tv choices. YES!

New Shows I will watch:

-Glee. If you have not seen the first episode yet and you like musicals/pop music/show choir, go to iTunes, hulu or fox.com and watch it. I'm pretty sure those are all the free, popular venues. The first new episode comes on tomorrow and I'm SO EXCITED.

-Melrose Place. I love Ashlee Simpson-Wentz, even if she can't act. I also like deliciously awful tv shows. From the first episode tonight, I already hate one character and love one character. And there is never enough Ashlee Simpson-Wentz.

-Flash Forward. This is not on yet. But it looks awesome and sci-fyi

-Vampire Diaries. I heard it was good.

Tv Shows I already watch:

-Gossip Girl
-Top Chef
-Real World
-Real Housewives of Atlanta/whatever season it is
-Mad Men
-Project Runway
-Lost when it finally comes back on for it's last season
-Brothers and Sisters
-True Blood but it's ending soon

wait. do i really not watch anything else? that can't be true, but I guess I just can't think of what else I watch. shoot. I promise I am not only a reality show girl, but apparently I can't even back it up. Sadface.

(This post is brought to you by Thai food, Melrose Place and red wine.)

I wore the time like a dress that year

Where to start? I haven't posted in awhile, not since my last library book was due. And guess what? It's still overdue. Lately, I haven't had the motivation to get up and go to the library, which is really ridiculous because it is not far away. In fact, it's a lot closer now that I'VE MOVED.

So I've moved to Wicker Park. I love our new apartment; it's smaller but cozier, and it finally feels like somewhere I want to live. Not to say that I didn't like my old apartment, because I did, but I didn't help make it the way it was. Kate and Molly had it set up the way they wanted at the beginning and I just moved in, but with this apartment, Molly and I put things where they needed to be, with help from Patrick. He was really a great help in the move and went above and beyond what I expected of him. It is very nice to have someone so wonderful in my life; I could never have asked for anything more. I know, kind of cheesy, but how I feel. And also, have you EVER heard me say anything of this sort? The answer to that is no, for sure.

Anyway, we moved (and aren't finished unpacking) and I started grad school. I was waiting until I finished my first week to give a thorough run-down of my classes and I feel like I have enough information now. I started having panic attacks last week before I officially went to any classes because I read the syllabus for one of them and it's just so intense, but I know I can do it. This is what I actually want to be doing, not just what I found interesting. Not that I'm knocking on psychology, because I love it, but I don't know if I ever actually saw myself as a therapist. Anyway, here are my classes:

The Exceptional Child: About Special Education, psychology and children. So far, I don't know how I feel about this. I just got the book in the mail today so I haven't read any of the chapters yet, but I can say that this class is interesting. The professor brings irish soda bread and candy during break for us for a snack, but I have difficulty paying attention in class. there are 50 plus students in the class, so it's kind of a big change. We do in class assignments in groups and he goes over every chapter in power points. It just seems a smidge easier than I would have thought. But I guess I can't complain.

Educational Psychology: I never took this class at Knox because it was kind of difficult to get into if you weren't an Ed major. It will be interesting, since it is covering my past school learning and my future school learning, so that's good. I'll learn a lot. It's an awkward online class, which I didn't really want to take. I've never taken an online class, and I can't see how I will learn anything without direct instruction from the teacher. So far, it's like "You read the chapter, then have a discussion on the discussion board." Uhm. I don't know, it just feels kind of like a jip, like I'm paying myself to teach me this subject. It's just sort of unsatisfactory for me.

Middle School Thought and Curriculum: WOW. This class' syllabus is the one that made me cry/panic. It's very intense, with a clinical portion where I have to go and observe for 15 hours in middle school. There's a lot of reading and I don't know, her syllabus is just very intense and in-depth on what teaching standards each subject we learn relates to. Already we have to read a bok by next week, which I am currently int he process of reading and I actually am really into it, so that's good. Within the first class, this professor had me 95% convinced that I want to teach middle school. No joke. I know I had mentioned it before and I was on the fence about it, but she has me very, very close. I have requested for observation to be placed in either a Spanish class or a Social Studies class, so those are the ones that I am most interested in. I don't know what she said to me, but I'm very excited about this class. At least if there is a lot of work, I can be dedicated to it in that I really enjoy the subject matter. I completed the homework for this class taht I have today last Friday. That's how excited I am about this class.

I don't really have anything else. The weeks are flying by. How is it already September? Feels like just yesterday it was January. Where did 2009 go?