Amber is the color of your energy...

So the other day I asked my brother if he knew who 311 was and he said "no." Then I sang parts of "down" and "amber" and he still didn't know.

I'M SO OLD

In other news, I keep having something to write in here and then forget. I guess that's the life of the old folk

Times, they are a changing

So I have been trying to make my weekends as fun as possible to counteract the not so awesome parts of my life (work, living situations, life, etc.) and I've been succeeding! Hooray!

But how it happened was crazy. So Kristin, Paul, Rose and I went to McGee's, which I happen to like WAAAAAAAAAAY better than Durkin's, although that's where rando old dudes tell me I'm beatufiul. LOL. But anyway, in the cab over there (because Paul only goes gangsta with it) Rose texts Stephanie where we are going. By the time we get there, she hasn't texted back, so we're just at the bar. And we're standing at the front with Paul's friends, getting free drinks from them when all of a sudden, I see this girl walking into the bar from outside and I go "That girl looks like Katya." TOO BAD IT WAS KATYA. And then she was like "Maureen and Stephanie are here!" And then we went and found them and then we were all friends and hung out and itw as awesome!
And it really made my weekend. For sure. And also, seeing old high school people and them telling me they have a crush on Nick is also pretty awesome too. Hahaha.

Also, they just played Vampire Weekend on American Idol. Weird. But also. I know I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaay late, but I love Vampire Weekend. Plus, Campus is like the best song ever.

You Learn Something New EVERYDAY

So today instead of being at work and watching the Inauguration like normal people, I was (sadly/good) at an HIV Counseling training. While it was important because we are about to start rapid HIV testing at the health center (and I will have to do it!), I was pretty upset that I didn't get to watch the Inauguration. For serious.

However. I learned a lot of new things. For one thing, if you are an intravenous drug user, you can go to any pharmacy and get 20 syringes without a perscription. I also learned that female condoms can be called receptive partner condoms and can be used for anal sex for males AND females. But the biggest thing I learned about is "cheeking."

And I guess I didn't really learn about it, I knew that it was possible to do it, I just didn't know how. I also didn't know the slang term (I learned a lot of slang terms today too.) So basically, cheeking is putting a condom on a penis with your mouth, but putting the condom in your cheek and then rolling it down the penis during oral sex. You can do it to put a condom on your partner without them knowing or you can just do it to put a condom on in a sexy way. Well, all of us in the training were wondering how exactly you do it. And then a woman also participating in the training demonstrated to us. And put a condom in her mouth. And then put it on her fingers. With her mouth. As demonstration.

IT WAS SO CRAZY

But it was, obviously, a really good training.

Also, I listened to Incubus on the way home and felt like I was in high school again. Crazy.

Oh, and because Alisha Asked: My Myers-Briggs Type Indicator

So basically, Alisha put this in her blog so I put it in mine because I am a copier. I am also an ENFJ (Extraverted Intuitive Feeling Judging). It is not a shocker. Here, I have a profile of an ENFJ, and I will italicize what I think is the most true about myself (which is...a lot of it).

If you want to take the test, take it here: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.

Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.

The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves.

People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning. They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any connection to a human element. Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present.

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules, without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty. They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

I think it's pretty true. Tell me if you think so! But also, read my other entry about tv. KThanx.

See, Here's the Thing

Yesterday I watched A TON of tv. Seriously. More tv than I usually watch. Aka from 7-11pm. Now, for those of you who were friends with me in college (aka everyone), this may not seem surprising. I was always watching tv cause I love it. However, since I've moved home and have started working, I tend to watch much less tv. Usually that's because I come home and get on the internet to talk to my friends. However, since the one person I usually talk to on a regular basis suuuuuuuuuuuucks, I have been spending more time in front of the television. Which is probably not a good thing. Ruh roh.

In any case, here is what I watched yesterday:

7-9: No bullshit. I watched American Idol. Every year, I'm like "Oh, I won't watch it this year," and then I get sucked in at the very beginning. It will quite possibly be even worse this year because there won't be dance practice/nice weather to draw me away from the two nights that it comes on television. But I'm pretty sure I really like American Idol because I really love music. If I don't listen to a little bit of music everyday I feel strange; I find people won't don't listen to music everyday weird.

9-10: Top Chef New York. Are you kidding me, this is my favorite show. Probably because I love food. And competition. I used to think Tom Colicchio was hot, but I'm over that phase in my life. Padma, on the other hand, is always attractive. (Also, whoever the a-hole is on wikipedia that put spoilers on the Season 5 info page FOR SHAME, I was almost just spoiled)

10-11: The Real World: Brooklyn. Obviously a guilty pleasure, but this year there is a transgendered woman. So it's kind of more real. Also, this cast has not been wasted 24/7 like the other past casts, so they are automatically winning. And they have to have their own jobs, CRAZY. There's this one girl, Baya, who is trying to be a dancer and they keep showing her dancing, so I have to judge. I think part of it is because I dance myself, and I would never do it to offend her, I just think that dancers critique other dancers because that's the only way to get better? In any case, her upper body does strange things that I don't understand. It's like, the lower half of her body has complete and total control and can be on beat but the upper part struggles. So hopefully she has already worked on that.

Basically, I just introduced you to my Wednesday nights. Best night of the week, my friends. Also, It's hump day!
Can't beat that.

Also, WGCI played a 30 minute Biggie mixtape today and it just might have saved my life.

On Attractiveness

For the many people that don't know me (aka no one), everyone knows that I have a horrendous, bone-crushing problem: there are very many days in my life where I just KNOW that I am not attractive. Perhaps, even ugly, if you will. In fact, I have said multiple times that I am ugly. I don't really know how this came about; I think deep down I know that I am not hideous looking, but there is something mentally that I cannot get over. I continue to think that I am not attractive. I don't know why (let's see how many times I type that during this entry).

The idea that I'm ugly is even more compounded when I am out drinking, especially when I am with certain people. It's not like guys don't hit on me, quite the contrary, it's just that in certain situations, I just don't feel attractive. I don't know why. Ugh, none of this is coming out correctly, so I'll just stop here.


In any case, my brother is studying for his spanish final right next to me. How funny.

I Wanna Come First

I don't really have much to say. 2009 is a new year and I'm being less cynical than usual, although DO expect that Twilight post to come up soon. Cause it makes me mad everytime I think about it. Also I heard from my friend Paul that he read an internet rumor that Stephanie Myer gives 10% of her book profits to support anti-gay legislation.

Once again. PLEASE be a rumor, because I'll be really upset with myself if not.

Anyway, did I mention how pumped I am for 2009? CAUSE I AM. I am finally (hopefully forever) done with some things and also It's a new year! How can you not be excited? I think a new year is exciting because everyone sees it as sort of a fresh start and tries to be a better person, even for a little while. I've stopped making ridic resolutions (such as, I'm going to lose three pounds) but I still make some.

Resolutions '09:

1.) Try to see my friends more. This is a big deal for me, because I really kind of am a homebody. I enjoy going out but I also enjoy my house. Naturally, this wouldn't be such a big deal if I lived in the city and people could just come to my house. In any case, this resolution involves not being such a pansy about not getting 8 hours of sleep. Especially if I'm hanging out with my friends, I think a couple of hours of lost sleep is not a big deal.

2.) Eat breakfast every morning during the week. I have already started this one and I definitely feel the difference. By incorporating a third meal into your day, the most important meal, you are jump starting your metabolism. Pretty much that means that you can eat more (not on purpose) and also that you have more energy throughout the day. I already have felt this. I am hungrier on a regular schedule but also, I eat more. I definitely have more energy as LaShawn keeps saying "Girl, you got too much energy." (I will point out that she said that before.) However, I think I'm still the same weight that I was three days ago when I started this business, but we'll see.

That's actually all the resolutions I have. I always want to read more, but that's not really a resolution since I read a lot anyway. I guess I have the normal ones that everyone wishes for: to be healthy and happy. I've been pretty upbeat these past couple of days, even with the stupid drama (or not drama, depending on how you look at it) going on, so I'm pretty positive this will be a good year. And hey, I don't go to Knox College AT ALL this year. I have not and will not be an enrolled student at any point and time in this year. How cool is that?

Also, I saw Milk with Brian and I have to say that it is my favorite Gus Van Sant movie to date. Cause I hated Elephant and I've never seen Good Will Hunting.

Dear 2009,

Please don't suck.

KThanx,

Erica


(I do want to point out that these first four days of 2009 have been pretty excellent, so I guess I can't complain too much. Although, 2008 did suck.)